| trishdish - Dan, I am seeing people joining this webchat and I feel grateful that they are joining this conversation. I also feel grateful to my good friends and those who were there to support us. But mostly I feel lonely. I miss Kenny, I miss him so much, he was the kid who went out on errands with me, he was my buddy, and when he couldn't go to school, he was always the one who wanted to be with me. There's a huge hole in my heart where he lives. It's never going to be fixed, ever, I'm trying to come to grips with that, and I'll always feel that pain. I know where the term broken heart comes from because I feel physical pain, right here, right in my heart. It does make me feel good to have this chance to tell our story, and hopefully bring about some changes, even if they are small changes, in our part of the world, those who have loved ones with mental illness. |